The Sabotage

I’m hard on you, I know

Cause all that it takes to conjure up this energy, got me thinking I better let you know not to play with me

I’m hard on you, I know

That the previous scars have nothing to do with you, & the boundaries seem too stiff. This is not a run to test your strength, tho I wonder why you’re still here

So I’m hard on you, I know

With this tough exterior, it’s seems impossible to get near, but damn do you manage. I love you for this… still

I’m hard on you, I know

I give too little in fear of you running off with all my stuff, & again that’s not your fault, but I can’t let you call my bluff.. so

I’m hard on you, I know

That I speak closeness & demonstrate distance. I hate the feeling of holding on too tight just to lose grip.. so

I’m hard on you, I know

That I act like I’m ready & then draw back, cause I love too hard & I’m shattered by detachment..

I’m hard on you, I know

You’re probably running outta patience & second guessing this. Maybe I pushed you here to get back to loneliness. It’s not on purpose.. it’s just safe here. So Im hard on you, & I know that if you let me, I’ll go.